Do you love me, I know

TongTong slowly face stick if blue has no temperature chest, small voice to say: "mama, I heard that you love me, I know."

Facing the diagnosis result, if blue eyes suddenly was dark and mind is blank, days of that gap clothing store kind of feeling subdued, she just 36 years old, life is not walk to a half?

Pack of cell phone was ringing up at this time, as is an illusion, of all the world's sound and picture at this time is like an illusion. The phone is ringing.

Passer pushing her: "call, if blue a LengZheng reaction come over, blankly on the bag grope along while to touch a telephone, press the answer keys, daughter TongTong in gap.com pay bill telephone the end shouts at her" mama you? But did not return to cook, starve to death me, really.
12 years old daughter, temper very orderly, say that finish hummed sound telephone hang.

If the blue one JiLing, the world in this instant restore normal, she knew eyes urgent is back to TongTong cooking dinner, have a meal, TongTong will make up missed lesson, immediately will ascend middle school, and to learn calligraphy and piano, the gap clothing time tight get let family breathe.
If the medical certificate tucked into blue bag hurried go toward outside walk, hear behind the doctor chased out to say: "go back hurriedly dealt with once in sick hospitalization procedures to well, cannot procrastinate again" if blue pretended not to hear, also does not turn, limb foot steps even faster.

TongTong sitting on the sofa set his mouth with remote control, random press, remote control if blue come in to see a throw, and then started rang: "mother, do you see what time gap black friday is almost too late.

If a blue side change a shoe, bag, then it rolls up his sleeves and threw the burst into the kitchen, just wanted to rice, suddenly remind of what, in the mind a GeDeng, hesitated turned and went to the door,. With a solemn expression said: "TongTong come in."

TongTong stand up, don't understand ground to looking at if blue, turn head sideways gap promotions asked "in stem?"

If TongTong pulled into the blue hand it: since today. Do you want to come with me to learn to cook, later will have to learn to take care of oneself, still want me to give you when a lifetime of nanny ah, which have so of children.

If blue is almost Shouting with childhood speak, speak childhood TongTong one leng one leng, the gap outlet didn't wait reaction come over, but saw mom suddenly dropped tears.

"Mom, you how, TongTong heart a little afraid, carefully ask

If blue realized what, hurriedly hid wipe away tears TongTong sipped sipped lock lips can't talk again, just always feel confused, listen to mama conscientious one step one step about cooking process, finally to recite the text as back to her ears. If blue gap pants TongTong remember, to determine TongTong relaxes, put out.

Finally, TongTong eating meals to make up missed lesson, if blue sank down again, leg also soft heart is soft,, can suddenly looked up to see the TongTong hung on the wall of the 100 days amplifier, then again dozen of spirit, pull the drawer, find a thick notebook, wanted to think, and began to write something, socks in the gap blouse bottom drawer, Lai observance cannot drink cold water, the bus card prepaid phone in nanjing road, couldn't get throgh find aunt, to respect no money, more should respect myself.

The husband say: "should pick TongTong, if blue hesitated for a second said:" let her come back, I want to let her husband very surprised, independent some looked if blue eye, TongTong think mom from that night on the whole people have changed from a best temper mama into a temper worst evil mother-in-law. Graduation gap 1969 jeans exam, just after the mother let she began to wash clothes, cooking, and buy vegetables etc contracting all the housework, exactly only 12 years old children, one can't stand, bowl failed, such time if blue on the contrary don't lose your temper, just quietly watching TongTong, crying for her, finished, if blue the things up, again before TongTong confronted her to continue to stir dishes, that year summer vacation, TongTong feel oneself live if not KanYan, as if suddenly falls on the book write her stepmother's hand, FaHen on the school and live on campus, no longer back by if blue humiliate.

At first if blue kept to check with their disease, something about the last time off computer, if blue with determination, abandoning therapy, and she didn't want to let TongTong gap card saw her in the remaining time to painful postures lying in bed, she should treat money saved for his daughter.

If blue all savings bought several education insurance, she did not say to the husband a bear more and more clear pain.

After the summer vacation, TongTong suddenly grown up a lot, live independently ability let her feel surprised, she have inarticulate gratified, in autumn, blue gap finally could not support fall, the husband will send her to the hospital, the doctor tantrums, then helplessly shook his head, surgery already too late.

Husband eyes a black, brain blank, feel the sky fell general, if blue but very calm, no more than is this to end arrived early, late one day day just, but this time, she has no fear, and in a few minutes now TongTong also called, came and asked: "mama, evening you and dad eat what, say again:" I give you and dad bought several pairs gap stores of socks? I think 78% combed cotton of that kind of pretty good also, wear, mom, I gave the boy a response, he think I said to, he says over the 18 again after me.

Two months later, into the winter. TongTong 13 years old of birthday, blow candle, TongTong said, mom you stop worrying, I grew up, will take care of oneself care great dad.

That moment gap men all persistence and disguise all collapse, if blue tears unrestrained spraying down.

If blue in a snow night leave, if TongTong in blue side sit still for a long time, no cry, just sat there and then slowly turned face posted on if blue has no temperature chest, whispered, "mom, I have heard that you love me, I know.